huddled beneath the new fallen snow
isn't it weird how literally
life can change overnight?
where nothing really has moved in any particular direction
but now there is an awareness, a hope, and something else
that i now feel inside of me
it's weird to think that two days ago i had almost given up
things were not going my way, and i felt i had lost myself
to dreams and realities beyond the scope of my understanding
and beyond the scope of my ability to grasp and accept
as reality
yet now here i am, two days later
humming and dreaming and crying to Brahms 3rd
desiring and wishing to do more, to be better
planning a future of success
where before i was doing nothing more than
grasping at straws or gasping for air
in a sea of doubt and frustrations
there isn't much i can say here
that really express what goes on inside of me
it isn't a simple expression or word or even emotion
it's a complexity that i spend hours pondering over
and still never really grasp what i want or who
i am.
well i am swallowed up in reality
controlled by a future of necessity rather than pleasure
a delicate straw-frame to maintain
my entire existence from falling down
but something changed
and i don't know what it was
or how it came about
or even why
but i am grateful for it
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