i waited forever to ask you
and then i did, because
you showed me your real life
that i wasn't invited to see until now

and you said ask away
so i did
and now you won't reply
my heart has been racing for an hour
i've been sick to my stomach
the anxiety is overwhelming, yet
you just won't reply

honestly your answer is one of two things
and either way it doesn't really
matter to me anymore
because i'm so anxious and caught up in
sympathy for myself