sometimes experiences seem to pile up
like some type of disease
even if one experience is unrelated, the subsequent series
seems to only be as it is because of the previous

i can only say that my own experiences have led me
into an all time low
depression and frustration with myself that
i have never experienced until this point
in my life

life seemed so simple. be kind, love, and
everything will work out
surely this is true, except the
everything will work out isn't particular or specific
to you or to an individual but to a grand whole
and perhaps we misrepresent that
or simply chose to ignore that

i can only say that i've been kind
and i try to love (unconditionally)
and be fair to the point of selflessness
yet
when you give yourself away, you
are no longer with you as well