this evening was interesting
you know those times where you know
something is going to happen
it's almost inevitable
but you do everything you can to stop it?

then it happens anyway and it
simply overwhelms you
you were not prepared
but forewarned

i suppose all weaknesses need to be
fought and overcome
and i'm not alone in my own shortcomings
but i definitely haven't come to terms
with myself, and who i am

perhaps what is needed is simple;
a change of heart and a change
of mindset and a change of
desires. it seems all so simple
after the fact, after the inevitable

perhaps it will repeat itself,
and i can have another chance
to be forewarned
and this time, prepare.